This is more me just sharing some thoughts then a question. I have no one in my day to day life other than my wife who is awake. So this type of sharing is therapeutic in a way, and I am curious if it's similar to others experiences....
The more I learn the more I feel separated from others. Im not complaining, more just noticing. I'd rather know the truth and feel alone, then to go through a fake existence. Like I'm here at work (I'm a teacher), and I see my coworkers all talking and focusing on popular culture etc during lunch. I can no longer sit with them and pretend to be interested. I feel like I look at others who don't know the truth in a way that can self isolate myself. It's hard to describe in writing. But almost like there is a wall between them and I, because they don't know the truth of the world. I feel sorry for them for being asleep but at the same token, I know there is nothing I can say to awaken them. Its almost like sometimes I am acting all day long, that everything is normal to fit in. When inside my head I always am thinking, all of this is a lie guys. I'd love to get out of teaching, but health care and salary kind of have me stuck. I'm definitely More of an oddity in the teaching world - I was the only person in my entire district to not get jabbed and it caused all these issues with the superintendent, but I still refused - so I know they all buy into this hook, line and sinker. I'm also one of the only non liberals in the school and it's a known thing as i ran for board of ed in the town where I live (lost by 1 vote) and my stances on issues that came out when running made that obvious to all. I have since pulled my kids from school and my wife homeschools them. Being inside the schools for 17 years, I made the decision that I don't want my kids exposed to this evil & deception.
Same thing with sports. Before I woke up during Covid I would DVR games of my favorite team and wouldn't miss a minute. Season tickets, heck even a tattoo of my favorite team - now I haven't watched a sporting event in a solid 3-4 years. Funny how the truth makes ya focus on what's truly important. Man they sure did a great distracting me for 38 years. Glad I know now.
Thanks for letting me share my thoughts.
I feel your relief in knowing the truth and the pain that comes with it. I'm trying to get my parents to look at s few long distance photos I posted on this forum the last few days but it's a tough thing. They are in there late 70's and the moon landing, space lab, space shuttle and everything in between is a part of their culture and it's a tough shell to crack. My brother is a conservative, Trump train patriot and I don't think I can break that shell either, but I'm gonna try. The feeling of isolation is an unfortunate part of this knowledge we share here. All we can do is hope something will spark their interest in going down the rabbit hole. As I write this letter from a camp ground the family directly across from our sight brought their gigantic projection screen tv and watching of all things...Disney. I would like to just go over there and tell them the truth about all the sexual crap hidden those shows, but I'd be the weirdo if I did that. Anyway, keep trying to crack some shells and feel lucky you have this knowledge because nowbody can take it from you.
Peace
My wife and I have been awake to the big lie for about 4 months now and we both feel the similar. We both try to be present and lean into our relationships with our friends, family and God more. I believe that we can only have peace in knowing our Creator. As we seek the truth more, we remember to stay in the Word. We continue to pray for dicernment, and clarity as He leads us in His purpose and will for our lives. We can trust Him and know that we are right where we need to be when we keep Him at the center. Finding community and sharing bread crumbs with our current family, friends, and co workers has worked to wake up 2 close friends and my wife's mother. We will slowly work on spreading the truth as we walk in faith.
You are not alone my friend. I am in the same boat as many of us are that are part of this chat group and part of the truth movement. Sticking to your convictions and being free from the matrix is more important than fitting in. Thanks to George Hobbs for putting this all together giving us an outlet to share and connect with those that have a like mind and that are in a similar phase of existance. I am struggling with my wife, she does not care and keeps saying what difference does it make so she can continue living her best life. I have 2 young kids in the school system and I wish that I could convince my wife to switch to a home school environment. Daily I tell my kids to question everything and that space, dinosaurs and evolution are all made up fakery. They also know that the earth is not a spinning water ball in the infinate vacuum of space. I also do not care and have not cared about pro sports for many years now, somehow always knew it was rigged, now it is justified. What a waste of time. Best of luck in your awakening of others and finding like minded people. We are few and far inbetween but are growing larger everyday!
Hello Mark, I can relate to much of what you have shared. I am a teacher too but have been in and out of the system for many years and finally left for good during 2020 when I just couldn't be a part of pushing ridiculous ideologies and rules.
I can't relate to many people in my life and feel quite isolated much of the time, but do feel that my faith keeps the hope going that things will work out. Hard to converse with those around me.
I was particularly shocked at how corrupt the churches have become and how they shut their doors during convid.
I live in a city in Canada and from the UK. I dream of living in a society of people who want to build something that takes care of people in so many different ways.
Thanks for your thoughts and I am sure many can relate.
Narrow is the path, and few are they who find it. It is good to come out of the world and be separate.